We all tend to think we understand what is going on, and all the people who are levels behind ourselves in this multi level learning game are retarded. Which they are. But each time we move up a level, our old self appears retarded, compared with our present self. And hopefully that process keeps on repeating.

The past three years have been a real eye opener for me, as they have for many people. It’s long been my hobby to post things online. (For over 25 years in fact, as I posted my first website in October 1998). It was once possible to earn an some income from blogging, but if you want to post content that is not deep state approved propaganda, it’s far harder now than it ever was in the past. Over the past five years the annual hits here on my WordPress blog have dropped by around 90%.

#1 TO MAKE MONEY

The blockchain platforms I used to earn some income from, have completely turned to shit, with key insider accounts controlling the payouts on the few platforms that remain. And it’s safe to say if you were calling out the covidhoax and the death jabs back in 2020, you are not on the insiders reward list. In fact I’m still black listed on several platforms, including Hive where everything I post is automatically down voted.

From 2016 to 2021 I actually did make money online, some of it from posting, but mostly from buying and selling blockchain tokens. But those are both dead ends now, so it’s safe to say I’m not doing it to earn money anymore. In fact I’ve lost business, and even made enemies, by being fairly outspoken online, particularly over the past five years. And posting stuff always takes time. Financially I would be better off if I just shut my face and acted like a normie.

#2 TO CHANGE THE WORLD

The next major reason was to “change the world”. Despite being a cynical “conspiracy” theorist, I did set out with the hope that by posting content it would be possible to “wake up the sheeple”. But this multi layered psyop we are all part of is a real mindfuck. If the sheeple haven’t woken up by now, my little blog posts are not likely to change much. And does anyone really understand all this stuff?

As an example of just how confusing this mindfuck can be, I’ll mention Miles Mathis. For the past few years I’ve been reading his essays – there are hundreds of them, and many are really interesting. At first I thought I’d found an amazing source of information, but gradually it dawned on me that it’s unlikely just one person could do all that research or write all those essays. Then I read this essay outing him as a Tavvistock shill: An Open Letter to Miles Mathis. When I first read it, I thought it was long, sloppily written, and badly presented, and I wasn’t fully convinced. But in 2023 “Miles Mathis” did several papers about subjects I’ve done a lot of research on. and I could see straight away that they were misinformation, and so the penny finally dropped. “Miles Mathis” does indeed appear to be an entire team of deep state contractors. The really tricky part is that about half of what they post does check out, and is often very revealing. But the other half sometimes doesn’t check out at all, and is often utter crap. Leading to the question WHAT ON EARTH ARE THEY UP TO? – And yet again I realise I’m not at the top of the pecking order. As I always seem to do…

“Miles Mathis” – his art sucks and his website is amateurist, disorganized and ugly, but for some reason I thought he was revealing deep state conspiracies that nobody else would touch.

What comes next I don’t know, that is as far as I’ve got. The world will continue to change with or without any input from me. So while changing the world might be an exciting idea in theory, in practice I’m beginning to understand why all those zen guru teachers say you can only change yourself.

#3 TO MAKE NOTES FOR MYSELF

Yes, this is probably the only one that really stacks up. The best way to get my head around something is to present it to others. And I prefer to do that in the form of a blog post. The combination of condensing ideas down to simple and easy to understand lines of text, combined with images, forces me to make my thoughts clearer. If that helps anyone else, that is a bonus. So that is the main reason I’m still posting stuff, and most definitely the reason for this post.

#4 TO HAVE FUN

Along with #3, just having fun strikes me as a really good thing to do online, and I am aiming to do this too, alongside making some good notes. If I can manage to do both that would be great. But that requires letting go of any outdated ambitions to get rich or change the world.

IT’S TIME FOR ME TO LET GO AND MOVE ON

What I really need to do now is to let go and move on from my outdated ideas of what blogging “should” be like, and ask what any of this is really achieving for me, or for anyone else. I’m going to stop posting here on WordPress but will continue doing some quick posts on Blogger. So if you would like to see those new posts, head on over to www.sift.co.nz.